It’s not about how much you want something, it’s about whether you think you deserve it or not.
I know I say this all the time, but seriously THE MINDSET IS EVERYTHING. What we believe about ourselves deep down is visible outside. It impacts our posture and behaviours, determining how we treat ourselves and how we’re considered and treated by others. The inner critics putting you down all the time, the limiting beliefs that tell you what’s possible and what’s not can be very expensive. They literally create your reality and the options you (think you) have: how you treat yourself, what you ask for, what you accept and tolerate, what you decline.